Yeah, essentially idling out and then popping back up for the feedback post is probably bad form, but... I do have things I'd like to say. Before any of them, though: Idling out was my own damn fault. I tried to play against my usual "lawful dumbass" type, failed to realize how much "self-isolating and self-destructive, probably suicidal" would result in very few chances for CR, and that combined with an unexpected promotion to a very, very intensely attention-required-at-all-times job pretty much concurrent with game start resulted in my gradually losing the enthusiasm I needed to stay in. I've spent most of the past few weeks banging my head against a metaphorical wall of WHY THE FUCK DID I NOT PLAY HIM AT FIFTY and regretting that I didn't check the game's run against a calendar.
However.
I don't know if the genre switch was flagged earlier than the gameplay making it apparent and I just didn't catch it, or if everyone else knew going in that this was inspired by Zero Escape and that's why it hit me (and apparently only me) like I'd stepped on a quantum immortality horror rake, but... from where I sit I went in expecting Twin Peaks But More Death and ended up with The Matrix Only Bleaker. Frankly I wouldn't have apped in had that been advertised, "none of this is real, even you" is a personal mega-squick (and is the reason I haven't tagged endgame or the last few GY events: I couldn't come up with a reason for Eric to react to the idea of being a copy of a possibly deceased original without it turning into "well, there's no reason for me to keep existing, I am an abomination that shouldn't", and nobody should have to play off that).
That said, changing investigation time to mid-afternoon was a good choice for the majority of the players but left me cut out - I'd apped in partly because a late investigation start would have allowed me to participate, had I not shot myself in the foot by apping a haughty grieving trainwreck. (WHY DIDN'T I JUST PLAY WIND. WHY. WHYYYYYY. DAMMIT. I AM A FOOL.) Catching up after that was pretty much impossible, but I'm glad you guys let me have input on Eric's death at least.
There was a lot of CR I wanted to develop but just lost the drive to after it became apparent that this was SF horror, not fantasy horror - but again, that's on me. I just feel like I took up a space somebody y'all actually know might have had, and I feel like an ass about it. Overall this was damn impressive for a bunch of first-time moderators, and while I probably won't be back (because [NONONOCat.wav] @ the particular subtype of SF horror this is taking after), I look forward to seeing how future rounds play out!
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However.
I don't know if the genre switch was flagged earlier than the gameplay making it apparent and I just didn't catch it, or if everyone else knew going in that this was inspired by Zero Escape and that's why it hit me (and apparently only me) like I'd stepped on a quantum immortality horror rake, but... from where I sit I went in expecting Twin Peaks But More Death and ended up with The Matrix Only Bleaker. Frankly I wouldn't have apped in had that been advertised, "none of this is real, even you" is a personal mega-squick (and is the reason I haven't tagged endgame or the last few GY events: I couldn't come up with a reason for Eric to react to the idea of being a copy of a possibly deceased original without it turning into "well, there's no reason for me to keep existing, I am an abomination that shouldn't", and nobody should have to play off that).
That said, changing investigation time to mid-afternoon was a good choice for the majority of the players but left me cut out - I'd apped in partly because a late investigation start would have allowed me to participate, had I not shot myself in the foot by apping a haughty grieving trainwreck. (WHY DIDN'T I JUST PLAY WIND. WHY. WHYYYYYY. DAMMIT. I AM A FOOL.) Catching up after that was pretty much impossible, but I'm glad you guys let me have input on Eric's death at least.
There was a lot of CR I wanted to develop but just lost the drive to after it became apparent that this was SF horror, not fantasy horror - but again, that's on me. I just feel like I took up a space somebody y'all actually know might have had, and I feel like an ass about it. Overall this was damn impressive for a bunch of first-time moderators, and while I probably won't be back (because [NONONOCat.wav] @ the particular subtype of SF horror this is taking after), I look forward to seeing how future rounds play out!